John 21: 1-14
How about a good meal and a meaningful conversation or a lovely afternoon in the park, for some people those could be “perfect moments.”
That’s what a man named Eugene O’Kelly began to seek after he was diagnosed with brain cancer --- “perfect moments.” At age 53, Mr. O’Kelley seemed to be in excellent health, traveling and working long hours as chairman and chief executive of a large American company. But then after a routine visit to his doctor, and subsequent follow up visits, it was revealed and confirmed that he had an aggressive brain cancer that would kill him in 100 days.
So, what do you do when you receive such devastating news? “I had focused on building and planning for the future,” said Mr. O’Kelly. “Now I would have to learn the true value of the present.” The only reason I can tell you about Mr. O’Kelly, is that he decided to write a book about his experience: Chasing Daylight: How My Forthcoming Death Transformed My Life.
You see as part of his dying, Mr. O’Kelly decides to “unwind” relationships with important people in his life, taking the time to have intentionally final conversations with those who have meant a great deal to him. He also goes searching for other “perfect moments” ? times of lingering over a meal, enjoying long and deep conversations, taking the time to soak up the beauty of nature over the course of an afternoon. “I marveled at how many “Perfect Moments” I was having now,” he writes in his memoir.
Paradoxically, Eugene O’Kelly found in his experience that he did not have much time, yet on the other hand, found that in many ways he had time for turning ordinary experiences into his “Perfect Moments.” Then he died, just as his doctors predicted.1 Our Christian faith is full of reminders that life has a start and a finish, and our faith is grounded in the conviction that there is meaning in the movement of our existence from beginning to end. For example, the Bible is not a random collection of ancient stories, but it moves in a meaningful way from the creation of the world in Genesis to the completion of God’s plan in Revelation. Even the story of our relationship with God has a purposeful progression to it, with God first speaking to us through Old Testament prophets, then coming to us in Jesus Christ, and finally living in us as the Holy Spirit. That means we are not a random collection of events tied together by our life, by accident or place of birth. Life is never marked by endless cycles of random events ? it always moves from start to finish, within God’s love and grace.
Yet, how do we break out of day-to-day living and dying and catch sight of those instances of God’s love and grace? In our gospel today is a glimpse of a moment that “unwinds” and comes by hearing and seeing the revelation of Jesus Christ.
To begin our lesson mentions three times where Jesus “appeared” to the disciples. The word used to “manifest” or “appear” is common in John's gospel and conveys the idea of “making visible,” or “making known.” If you remember, John records Jesus Christ's appearance on resurrection day, then to Thomas with the disciples a week later. Now he records a "third time," that is, a third day, a 3rd making manifest, in which Jesus Christ appears during the period between His resurrection and ascension. In between his resurrection and ascension is not a random event, rather it is to make visible, to have an intentional final conversation, over a meal between Jesus and his disciples.
Today’s appearance begins to slow down while the disciples are fishing. Seven of the disciples decided to go fishing, all following Peter's lead. These disciples were for the most part and from what we haven been told before, accomplished fishermen. We can assume that they understood the right places and the right time in the Sea of Galilee (Sea of Tiberias - Latin) to catch fish. John comments, “So they went out and got into the boat, but that night they caught nothing.”
Talk about depressing! Here the disciples are recovering from all these proceedings in Jerusalem and the last couple of weeks, trying to put their lives back together. Now the disciples can not even catch fish. Then, as dawn breaks a question comes across the waters from a stranger from shore, “Friends, haven't you any fish?" "No," they answered.”2 Our translation does not do justice to the sentence because the word translated as “Friends” could also mean “Children.” It was a non-threatening question, as if from a kindly old man asking a simple question of children, yet phrased in such a way as to expect a "no" answer. The disciples gave an honest reply, which seems to be an unusual thing for fishermen. These seven disciples had to admit that with all of their skills and experience, they had caught nothing. Next the disciples are surprised yet respond to the suggestion for the stranger tells them: “‘Throw your net on the right side of the boat and you will find some.’ When they did, they were unable to haul the net in because of the large number of fish.”3
ut it does not end there. The moment continues to unfold when they all go to the beach. Peter initiates the move when he jumps into the water and takes off to the beach after having just been told by the disciple whom Jesus loved, which has typically been to mean John, who had sensed that the man on the beach is none other than Jesus.4
The other disciples quickly follow with the net and boat. And what did they find when they got there? When the disciples came to shore they found that Jesus had already prepared breakfast for them. “When they landed, they saw a fire of burning coals there with fish on it, and some bread. Jesus said to them, ‘Bring some of the fish you have just caught.’” And then “Jesus said to them, ‘Come and have breakfast.’”5
They had fished all night and it was now daylight, time for breakfast. They had nothing with them on the boat. They had nothing prepared on the shore. They had the need; Christ had the supply.
Why did the disciples remember the details? Because everything was perfect; not perfect in the sense of everything going the right way rather they never wanted to forget the call from the beach: the smell of the charcoal fire, sitting and eating with their Lord, enjoying his presence --- they had to remember every detail --- the whispered exclamation of John to Peter, the details of how Peter prepared to jump in the water, the exact number 153 fish --- all these details so they could replay the memory again and again.6 I do not know about you, but sometimes there are those moments in life when you remember the details of an event, you don’t want to forget anything, a grace filled ? faith filled moment.
Next week we will hear how this moment unwinds with Jesus in conversation. But that is next week.
Today we are left watching how an event in daily life, transformed into this perfect moment.
In the end, it’s all about relationships; a relationship with God and relationship with one another. Eugene O’Kelly, the man who died of cancer sensed this, which is why he spent so much time with friends and family in the last hundred days of his life. “Must the end of life be the worst part?” he wondered. “Can it be made the best?”
This is a good question for each of us. Can the challenging times be the best of times? Can we learn the true value of the present, and find grace-filled, faith-filled perfection in the seemingly mundane? Can we turn ordinary experiences into Perfect Moments ? moments in which we see the hand of God revealed?
As I said, near the end of his life, Eugene O’Kelly arranged times to “unwind” with people who had been important to him over the course of his life. These “unwindings” were intentionally final conversations, held at home and in restaurants, but also in ordinary gardens, by rivers, and in the middle of a park. They were his and his friend’s time to experience God’s revelation of grace and love in friendship, frankness and fun.
We can do the same, for whether we have brain cancer or not, whether we are having good days or not, we can do our best to have quality conversations with family members, friends, colleagues and neighbors. We can work on our relationship with God, and by serving others in the name of Christ. We can look to the future, knowing that we can approach every day with confidence and anticipation, trusting that our Lord is involved in our lives in an active and ongoing way, always working for healing and restoration and peace. Jesus Christ is open to revealing himself to us all the time. So the only question that remains is how many faithful “Perfect Moments” can we have right now?
1 Dean, Cordelia. When cancer strikes, a high achiever plans. The New York Times, March 14, 2006.
2 John 21: 5
3 Vs. 6
4 Vs. 7
5 Vs. 9-12
6 Vs. 5,10